Още един ден. Още надежда. Докога ще се надявам и ще вярвам в следващия ден?
Идва вечерта и всичко угасва. Зная, че съм прохабил още един ден. Празен. 
Скован съм. Сковал съм се. В себе си. В собствените си разбирания. Разбирания на разбирач. Явно уроците да си смирен, да си добър и да си знаеш мястото са правилни. Започвам да виждам грешки от миналото, които (започвам да) вярвам, че определят настоящето. Възходът води до падение разбира се. 
Цял живот давам всичко и катеря. Толкова усилия, нищо даром. За да мога да усещам ясно клишето "тишината е толкова оглушителна".

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