Още един ден. Още надежда. Докога ще се надявам и ще вярвам в следващия ден?
Идва вечерта и всичко угасва. Зная, че съм прохабил още един ден. Празен. 
Скован съм. Сковал съм се. В себе си. В собствените си разбирания. Разбирания на разбирач. Явно уроците да си смирен, да си добър и да си знаеш мястото са правилни. Започвам да виждам грешки от миналото, които (започвам да) вярвам, че определят настоящето. Възходът води до падение разбира се. 
Цял живот давам всичко и катеря. Толкова усилия, нищо даром. За да мога да усещам ясно клишето "тишината е толкова оглушителна".

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

COUNT VLAD'S AOTY LIST OF 2023

Image
  The pretentious mainstream hipster elitist poser's AOTY list of 2023 is here. The ultimate list that makes them all lists. My favorite releases of the year 2023. It features everything that I enjoyed the most throughout this already-dead and-gone year.  When I was preparing this list I looked into all my notes, went through all the monthly lists that I published here and revisited quite a lot of albums. And I must admit that basically, everyone could have a spot in the AOTY lists. It has been a really crazy year - an enormous amount of releases, thousands of bands, and very good albums shortlisted. Literally, almost every band on Earth put out a new album! I already published My Top 50 Death Metal Albums of 2023 and My Top 50 Black Metal Albums of 2023 . Of course, there are some omissions, I realize this. The good news is that I can return to my monthly selections anytime and revisit the good ones. Every time I find a forgotten gem there. You should do the same.  While preparin
Read more

MY TOP 50 DEATH METAL ALBUMS OF 2023

Image
  There you go, another year dead. So what better way to start the celebrations than to list here my most favorite DEATH METAL albums of the year! It is a simple list that corresponds to the way the artworks are ordered on the collage. If you want to dig beyond this list, you can always go back month by month through my selections. You will find there more pretty damn good death metal too.  Death metal album of 2023? It is AFTERBIRTH's In But Not Of. 🔥🔥🔥 And below you can check the full list of those 50 albums. 💀💀💀 1. Afterbirth - In But Not Of ( Bandcamp ) 2. Sulphur Aeon - Seven Crowns & Seven Seals ( Bandcamp ) 3. FlesheR - Tales of Grotesque Demise ( Bandcamp ) 4. Dying Fetus - Make Them Beg for Death ( Bandcamp ) 5. Horrendous - Cult of Shaad'oah ( Bandcamp ) 6. Suffocation - Hymns From the Apocrypha ( Bandcamp ) 7. VoidCeremony - Threads Of Unknowing ( Bandcamp ) 8. GROTESQUERIES - Vile Crematory ( Bandcamp ) 9. Disguised Malignance - Malignant Visions ( Bandcam
Read more

MY TOP LIST OF SEPTEMBER 2023

Image
Abundance. This is how I can describe September 2023. This is why the below list looks like shit, meaning so unprofessional that I am listing 55+ albums below. I tried somehow to make a conditional cut at 25, but honestly, it's worth spending time with all these albums.
Read more